Tuesday, April 30, 2013

And Here I Go {Again}

Again, that is the part that is KILLING me. 
I saw this and it sums it up perfectly.. 

About 5 1/2 years ago I made a change in my life and I lost all my weight from having kids, I was the same size as I was in high school, I could go into any store and buy clothes and NOT worry about a muffin top or cellulite. I had worked my body into this lean healthy machine... 
Then I tore my miniscus disk, and I was off my leg for 5 months.. I would have a burger here and there, and talked myself into believing that even though I wasn't able to workout, I could eat whatever I wanted, when  I was given the green light to exorcize, I didn't really change my food and getting back in the habit just didn't happen, I had other things that I made a priority. 
Here I am 5 years later, and I'm right back to where I was... and the fact that I've been here before and I SWORE I would never be back hurts.I know EXACTLY how to prevent this, and how to loose it, and yet I'm doing nothing?? OUCH.  Honestly it's that hurt that then fuels the emotional eating, and then I sit and feel sorry for myself, and then nothing gets done about it. What a vicious cycle I'm on. If you have read this blog before, I suffer from depression and anxiety which can reallly take it's toll on me. And I know that my thoughts about myself and my weight don't help. So in this journey I won't just be changing my body I'll be changing my mind.
  I have tried to get back into running, and working out like I used to, my knee just can't handle it, so I have to start a bit slower this time around. Do things that are easier on my knee, and still have the same effects. So for now I'm building up muscle to support my joints, before going all out on the cardio.  
I know that it will take a little bit before I see the changes, and I have a journey ahead of me... but I'm going to take it one baby step at a time!! I'm better than I was yesterday!!  I'm not quite brave enough to post a before picture though....

Monday, April 29, 2013

{Upcoming} 2013

yes here we are almost halfway into 2013, I have a list a mile long of projects to show you, and thoughts to share, and a journey I'm on, yet again... 

BUT for now I will share something crazy... 
I have a weekly planner

I looooved this one from {www.andcute.com }

Yes I have printed up a weekly to do, so I can organize my time better. 
If you know me you will know that I am HORRIBLE at this. Not too good when you want to have a blog that will inspire others. Yet I have this burning urgent desire to blog, and like I said I have 984573483 ideas for it... I just needed to organize my thoughts, and my process. :) 

I will be sharing with you soon!!!