Wednesday, August 20, 2014

We are meant to be {FREE}

As I learned of the passing of Robin Williams, I was devastated.
Not just because he is an acting legend; but because he ended his own life.
Then I became aware of a light in the sadness. People are realizing that depression is serious.
I have struggled with depression for years. I have tried to end my own life, and have a scar.  What ended that for me was my Papa he looked at me with tears in his eyes, and said "don't I love you enough?" I promised then and there that I wouldn't try again, and I haven't. Not that depression is a thing of my past, but that promise has gotten me through many rough times.
For many years I have been afraid to admit to myself or anyone that what I felt was depression/anxiety.  I knew what the world thought of depression, I have seen it myself. I was afraid to be labeled crazy. In reality I only started admitting to this a few years ago.. I have depression, but it does NOT have me.  Once I decided to own my depression, it lost it's power over me. I started sharing more and more about how the Lord has given me the power to be free. 
Shame kept me from getting help. I was embarrassed of what I thought was weakness. I was afraid that people would think that I didn't have enough faith. But NONE of these are true.
Remind yourself of this, and remind others too!
2 Timothy1:7  For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.